To Abah,With love
Tuesday, November 22, 2011 | 0 comment(s)
Abah has always and will always plays an important role in my life.When he was still around,every decision would only be made after I consult him or ask him for his opinion.Of course,based on what you have read above,I definitely am daddy's little girl and am a proud one! =D He always taught me that in life,you'll never be succesful in every single one of your attempt,but whats important is,you try hard enough.One will only fail at something if he or she didnt try hard.Whenever you've work hard for something and yet you still fails,take a deep breath,hold your head up high,smile and say,"I've tried my best,maybe now is just not the time for me to shine and be succesful yet,".
Growing up,I've always been close to abah.He's my inspiration,my idol and needless to say the main reason why I want to become a succesful person in life.Abah was a very friendly person.He always told me to say hi to our neighbours whenever we met them,just like he did.Maybe that's the reason why he has tons of friends and a great relationship with our neighbours.When I was little,I follow abah to his office most of the time.Most of his co-workers knows me well as abah has established a very close relationship with them.
Abah has always been my biggest influence in life and it shall remain that way.He passed away on 29th August last year leaving the whole family in a state of shock.He passed away during Ramadhan to be exact.Everyone were definitely sad and felt terrible that he is no longer with us.I definitely took it the worst,and thank god for family at times like this.Everyone told me that during his time around,he never wants his daughter to cry and they're all sure that it still remains the same.But still for me,it's hard.Very hard.Losing someone that has always be there by your side,whenever things go right or wrong,whenever you went through your ups and downs is hard.Losing someone that is in your everyday life that you would never thought would leave you is just hard.Losing your idol is hard.Losing your motivator is hard.Losing your problem solver and listener is hard.But losing your FATHER is the worst part.Combine all of it together,the lose hurts a million times more.
I'm adapting to his loss better now.But it is not in a million year because I've forgotten all of our memories together,It is simply because I've learnt that no matter how hard I cry,things will never change.Life must go on.His body might no longer be present in this world.But he stays comfortably at the highest and safest spot there is,that is in my heart.And he shall stays there forever.In my heart and memories.I would love to thank you for everything abah,everything.Sorry for all the wrong things that I've done wether I realise it or not.I can never repay everything that you've done for me and our family.You're the best.Tonight and everynight,I shall sleep with you in my heart.
God looked around his garden,and found an empty space.Then he looked down upon this earth,and saw your tired face.He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest.God's garden must be beautiful,he only takes the best.So to everyone who has loss your loved ones,jangan risau,mereka mesti tengah baik-baik sahaja dekat atas sana. =) May all of their beautiful soul rest in peace.Amen,